silence

SILENCE

BY SELENA CROSS

At last I have cla-ri-ty
It took a while, it took a long time
But now I can see
I learned to let go
It was the hardest lesson learned
But I gave you my love
In silence
Silence
There would come a time
In my life
When I'd face what was real
I turned a blind eye
I'd fear the light
Too afraid to come clean
But I learned to let go
Although you will never know
That I gave you my love
In silence
Silence
Silence
Silence
But I learned to let go
It was the hardest lesson of all
Did you ever know?
I gave you my love
In silence
Silence
Ooh

I had to go to Charleston today for a training, I left with my portfolio and my coffee in hand. Thinking of the quick conversation that I had with our PaPa this morning. The typical day start, read my devotion, maybe a chapter or so in the Bible, say a prayer then keep going into my day. I have been in deep thought on the fact that I am bored in my life, in basically most aspects.... this morning I wondered if God gets bored with our conversations and structures we have set in our lives.... So as I got in my jeep and started down the road I noticed my radio was off, I thought, how far can I go without noise, just me and God in the jeep. The exit to get on the turnpike, then came the first toll, then the second, then my exit, I made it to my destination without my radio which is an hour. I talked and I was quiet. Listening, asking a question then feeling, that doesn't have to be decided right now, or getting peace with my decision.

I love the song above because it describes not only a particular relationship in my life but also how I feel God loves us in silence..... doesn't cause the drama to get our attention but is quiet. When I read my friends blog about listening I knew I had to write one on silence because it was confirmation on what I was feeling today. Sometimes silence speaks louder then words....